It's Been Awhile (Yet Again)
I didn't realize how much time has passed since then. So many changes, so many differences. It's been over 2 years already..? Wow. Today I realized something, although it should have been obvious. In this world, there is only so much people you can put your trust in. There are those who are willing to support you and believe in you, and there are those who hears only bits and pieces of you and suddenly paints an entire picture of you.
And then you run into a conflict. Are these people worth keeping in your life? Do you need this negativity?
The answer is, it depends. Sometimes, you just have to wait until they believe in you. Sometimes, both parties have to grow up a little. There is still so much more in life.
In general, I've been a lot happier. But then I'll have sad days, or even disappointed days. But who is to blame? The victim? The supporters? The one who hurt you? The new people?
I've learned today that you can't trust every person you meet. You can't act the same with every person you meet. Well of course, I knew that. I know that. But if I trusted you in the beginning, that means I was able to let go a little and talk to you.
But when you don't believe what I say, or you painted a picture of me in your head that's not actually me, AND not taking the time to reach out and ask me questions rather than criticize me, then I can only end up feeling disappointed.
I trusted you, I trusted you'd support me. But I will not eject you from my life, because I still care. I almost love you like how I love my family. One day, maybe we can get a better understanding of each other and eventually not crumble.
We all have our differences, preferences, changes, etc. But I understood where you were coming from. I have a lot to learn still, and so do you. In fact, no one ever stops learning.
So for future advice, for anyone who's reading this, learn the full story first. Don't jump to conclusions. Stop and listen. Grow a little. Love a little.
Mahgii @ 3:02 PM - 06.19.18
A Revived Blog..?
Hi all. It's 2016. The fact that this section hasn't been updated for over 3 years means I really want to blog about something. It's pretty much life in general, and it's probably a little negative; a little realistic. So here we go.
After entering the "more" real world since 2013, I started to realize a couple things, and it surely stood out so far in 2016. Trust issues. I can't seem to stress that enough, but people are so prone to trust issues. It happens in your personal life as well as your work life. The more you grow up, the more responsibilities people put on you. And here's the catch: You're doing an awesome job? Great! Now you're going to keep getting relied on for the same thing, probably a thing you hated doing in the first place but obligated to do it. In other words, people will take advantage of it because you've already done it! Being too kind to others? Great! They'll use that as an advantage because they can! Because you won't get mad at them! And even when you do call it out, they'll only temporarily change until you're open to doing what they ask for again, because they know you won't stay mad or angry for long!
That my friends, is called life. I used to think it's pessimism growing up, but no, it's not. It's realism. This is the real world, and it sure is a sad one. We start to lose trust in each other easier than ever everyday, because the other person can't get what they want from you, so then you end up working harder. But in the end, you're the one who's taking all the damage; all the blame. And the worst part? You can't avoid it.
I miss being a kid again. Kids have it easier; oblivious to the real world. They can rely on their parents and/or guardians and not have to worry about a thing in the world. Because as a kid, you automatically "trust" the closest adult next to you to take care of you. But like I said, as you grow up, you have to rely more and more on yourself. And when you learn to try to "trust" others, you uncover the truth behind their masks and that you can only trust yourself.
As far as I know, plenty of people get used everyday and not even realize it. It's only when it becomes overwhelming that they start to notice things like, "Hey, why am I wasting so much of my time and effort on this?" I wish it was that easy to let go... Sometimes, I wish I can move away somewhere far and tell no one about it.
Maybe then, I'll rightfully get acknowledged.
Mahgii @ 4:09 PM - 05.16.16
Welcome to My New Domain!
I have finally moved everything from my free subdomain account to this wings-x.net domain! Hurray! I bought this domain during my school year in January, when it was the start of my winter quarter of 2013. So now that the quarter ended, I deleted the minor things and have officially moved here. :) The reason why I bought this domain during the quarter was because it was for my Web II class. Everything also went well in this class, as I have received an A. Yay me!
Also, I have finally updated links and small contents. Everything should work and make more sense now. If you guys ever catch something not loading right, please contact me right away. Thank you and have a nice day.
Mahgii @ 2:16 AM - 03.28.13
Website Mostly Done
Hello guys! The website is mostly done, just need to still possibly add a picture or two. Also, the Blog Archives will be completely renewed. Old archives from the XOXO website will not be transferred, but saved for my own personal references. It will not be accessed here. Anyway, thanks for viewing my main website WingsX! :)